*Currently listening to "As I Am" - Alicia Keys*Hi All!
My blog (for the most part) is now finished thanks to some great advice from my dear, dear friend Luvvie (her blog is at http://www.awesomelyluvvie.com/ by the way - good plug, good plug). Most of my clothes are packed and most of the things I need to give away in my apartment are gone or earmarked to be gone soon. I have started cleaning out my office at work and all of my personal spaces are starting to clear. I have began my goodbyes and already purchased a one-way ticket.
I was not sure when the reality of the situation would start hitting me -- and it just did this morning. Something about fully acknowledging the fact that in one week my life will be totally different took my breath away. I started to think about how I'm leaving everything I have ever known for a world that is completely unknown and my eyes just started watering. I'm incredibly excited and anxious and ready for school - but aside from that, New York is this place, this thing, this being that could destroy me in the blink of an eye. And that is terrifying. I know I shouldn't worry as I have faith that it will all work out someway, somehow, but it would help if I had some inkling as to what that "someway, somehow" is. Each and every day is filled with hope and almost simultaneous disappointment regarding a job, finances, and the like. But I resolve to believe that the Lord has brought me thus far for a reason and I don't think He would just leave me here shattered and unfulfilled.
So, back to job hunting and preparing I go. I just made the first payment out of my pocket for school so if it wasn't official before, it SURE is NOW. :-) PLEASE DONATE! (I have the button now LOL)
